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Leaving Home

Well with 34 days, 11 hours, 15 minutes, 05 seconds until we fly to NZ, time is ticking away. People keep asking me if I am going to miss my family and friends. Yes, it seems like a rather obvious answer to me. Why am I going? Well 6 years and 53 days ago I [...]

Lost Chance

Here follows a not so typical boy meets girl story. Boy likes girl, girl likes boy, girl starts to write boy letters at the rate that most people breathe, and boy’s not too sure what he should write to girl in reply, girl panics and thinks boy is not interested in her or her feelings. [...]

What lingers after an affair…

I should be able to listen to Christy Moore and appreciate the tunes, the words, the meaning; there are many Gaelic artists whose songs riddle me with guilt, shame and heart ache. I hear his words in every lyric and still feel his touch on me. Sometimes I dream of him, is this my conscious haunting me, [...]


I hate losing things, I don’t remember the very first time I felt loss, I remember a million times of not being able to find something, the circle of frustration and the loss of myself out of that frustration. I remember losing a ring that had been given to me for my eighteenth, to be [...]

What the hell is love and passion?

I’ve loved men, some great men, some men that really deserve to be called men. But there has always been a confusion in my head as to what love really was. I gave my whole heart to men and women in sex and friendship and my whole heart wasn’t always valued at it’s worth, so [...]

one last time

There have been times in my life where I have felt the dark night envelop me. I’ve loved till there was no love to keep for myself up. Over the years I have learnt that you can’t love someone with your whole heart because inevitably that relationship will end, and if there is no love [...]